I have been feeling quite convicted of the way I view myself in regards to looks and beauty. It started happening when I noticed Bree watching me - always watching me. She watches me get dressed - and redressed - and redressed until I finally pick out an outfit that I don't think looks terrible. She watches me put on my make-up. She watches me blow my hair dry ... then straighten it ... then curl it ... then finally put it in a ponytail feeling discontent.
Discontent seemed to color my whole perspective. I wish I had better clothes. I wish my skin was darker. I wish my hair was shorter - or longer when it's short. I wish had those cute shoes I saw at the mall. I wish I had more fun accessesories. And on, and on, and on. You get it.
It hit me this weekend: what a poor job I will do raising my daughter to love herself if I continue on this path.
I see how beautiful Bree is, and I constantly hope she will see herself the same way. I never want her to feel like she has to do more - or do anything - to be beautiful. I don't want her to feel like the outside is what matters. I don't want her to try to live up to our society's unrealistic expectations of beauty.
So, 2011 has seen a dramatic increase of my contentment and confidence. I have felt a strong gain in these areas - but there is still work to do. 2012 needs to be a year of "putting on love" (Colossians 3:14) and "dressing modestly, with decency and propriety, adorning themselves, not with elaborate hairstyles or gold or pearls or expensive clothes, but with good deeds, appropriate for women who profess to worship God" (1 Timothy 2:9-10).
I want to be the example Bree deserves. I want her to know her mommy loves how God made her and loves what God has given her. And maybe, just maybe, she will learn that for herself much quicker than I did.
Tuesday, December 6, 2011
Tuesday, November 22, 2011
Longing for Home
Today was the conclusion of my Revelation study - and wow, what a powerful way to end it. I learned a lot of great things, but here are a few final pearls of wisdom:
1. God chose to make all things new, not all new things.
He doesn't want to scrap His creation. He doesn't want to scrap my past or yours. How can we marvel at God's grace if we forget what He has brought us through? We have to keep our testimony of redemption.
2. We can't imagine what Heaven WILL have, but we CAN understand what it will NOT have.
This was probably the most pivotal thing I realized. Heaven is so incomprehensible. But I do know what will not be in Heaven: tears, death, sorrow, mourning, crying, pain. Probably the most powerful verse I have ever read comes from Isaiah 65 where he says:
17 “See, I will create
new heavens and a new earth.
The former things will not be remembered,
nor will they come to mind.
18 But be glad and rejoice forever
in what I will create,
for I will create Jerusalem to be a delight
and its people a joy.
19 I will rejoice over Jerusalem
and take delight in my people;
the sound of weeping and of crying
will be heard in it no more.
20 “Never again will there be in it
an infant who lives but a few days,
or an old man who does not live out his years..."
Never again will an infant live for only a few days. The sound of weeping and crying will be heard NO MORE.
3. The redeemed will finally BE HOME.
We will gaze upon our Heaven on earth and finally say, THIS is what I was created for. We will no longer be strangers, foreigners, or aliens. We will be home.
1. God chose to make all things new, not all new things.
He doesn't want to scrap His creation. He doesn't want to scrap my past or yours. How can we marvel at God's grace if we forget what He has brought us through? We have to keep our testimony of redemption.
2. We can't imagine what Heaven WILL have, but we CAN understand what it will NOT have.
This was probably the most pivotal thing I realized. Heaven is so incomprehensible. But I do know what will not be in Heaven: tears, death, sorrow, mourning, crying, pain. Probably the most powerful verse I have ever read comes from Isaiah 65 where he says:
17 “See, I will create
new heavens and a new earth.
The former things will not be remembered,
nor will they come to mind.
18 But be glad and rejoice forever
in what I will create,
for I will create Jerusalem to be a delight
and its people a joy.
19 I will rejoice over Jerusalem
and take delight in my people;
the sound of weeping and of crying
will be heard in it no more.
20 “Never again will there be in it
an infant who lives but a few days,
or an old man who does not live out his years..."
Never again will an infant live for only a few days. The sound of weeping and crying will be heard NO MORE.
3. The redeemed will finally BE HOME.
We will gaze upon our Heaven on earth and finally say, THIS is what I was created for. We will no longer be strangers, foreigners, or aliens. We will be home.
Friday, October 21, 2011
Revelation: Heresy?
It's not a typo. The book is really called Revelation - not revelationS. It's just one revelation.
Anyway.
I heard an excellent point about heresy. Often, we only think of it as teaching incorrect things. However, heresy also includes not teaching all there is to teach. I encounter this a lot when teaching kids about Bible stories. We never tell them David cut off Goliath's head. And David slept with a married woman. You never Cain and Abel in kid's Bibles.
I understand age appropriateness.
But sadly, this is also true of a lot of adults. We leave bits and pieces out of our stories. We don't want to scare people, offend people, or look crazy so we water it down. I have heard many people admit to never reading Revelation because it is too scary. They can't believe our God of love and grace would shower down the bowls and trumpets of judgement on earth. So, we avoid that part of the Bible all together.
I admit, it is a hard read. You feel an overwhelming sense of grief and compassion for those who will experience the end times, and an overwhelming peacefulness if you are marked and sealed by God. Because it says clearly harm will not come upon those with God's seal on their forehead (see previous post "sealed by God").
After reading through the beginning of Revelation (up to chapter 10 so far), I see God in a whole new light. It has expanded my understanding of His grace, tolerance, and wrath. It has made me love Him more. And the book even STARTS by saying blessed are those who read this and hear it. Blessed!
So, consider learning the full Gospel story. You'll be a lot less surprised at the end of days if you know how it ends. There should be a spoiler alert at the beginning of Revelation, for sure.
Anyway.
I heard an excellent point about heresy. Often, we only think of it as teaching incorrect things. However, heresy also includes not teaching all there is to teach. I encounter this a lot when teaching kids about Bible stories. We never tell them David cut off Goliath's head. And David slept with a married woman. You never Cain and Abel in kid's Bibles.
I understand age appropriateness.
But sadly, this is also true of a lot of adults. We leave bits and pieces out of our stories. We don't want to scare people, offend people, or look crazy so we water it down. I have heard many people admit to never reading Revelation because it is too scary. They can't believe our God of love and grace would shower down the bowls and trumpets of judgement on earth. So, we avoid that part of the Bible all together.
I admit, it is a hard read. You feel an overwhelming sense of grief and compassion for those who will experience the end times, and an overwhelming peacefulness if you are marked and sealed by God. Because it says clearly harm will not come upon those with God's seal on their forehead (see previous post "sealed by God").
After reading through the beginning of Revelation (up to chapter 10 so far), I see God in a whole new light. It has expanded my understanding of His grace, tolerance, and wrath. It has made me love Him more. And the book even STARTS by saying blessed are those who read this and hear it. Blessed!
So, consider learning the full Gospel story. You'll be a lot less surprised at the end of days if you know how it ends. There should be a spoiler alert at the beginning of Revelation, for sure.
Thursday, October 20, 2011
Stay At Home Baby
I am currently a stay-at-home baby, and a lot of people wonder how I fill my days ... so here is a typical day in the life of me, Breanna Mackey.
A hearty, yet healthy, breakfast. Sweet potatoes and corn today. Yum!
I fold lots of laundry...
Time for stimulating block play...
Finally, I get dressed.
I give Giselle a cookie before it's time for errands...
Off to the grocery store...
Shoot, did I forget to write down baby food?
Nope, there it is. Third down on my list.
I make some important calls ...
I spend some quality time with Daddy ...
Then I have a little drink with dinner (because its been a long day).
And I'm full ... time for bed!
I left out quite a bit of "non-essential" activities (pooping, crying, sleeping, etc.), but this my typical day. I'm a very busy girl!
A hearty, yet healthy, breakfast. Sweet potatoes and corn today. Yum!
I fold lots of laundry...
Time for stimulating block play...
Finally, I get dressed.
I give Giselle a cookie before it's time for errands...
Off to the grocery store...
Shoot, did I forget to write down baby food?
Nope, there it is. Third down on my list.
I make some important calls ...
I spend some quality time with Daddy ...
Then I have a little drink with dinner (because its been a long day).
And I'm full ... time for bed!
I left out quite a bit of "non-essential" activities (pooping, crying, sleeping, etc.), but this my typical day. I'm a very busy girl!
Wednesday, October 19, 2011
Blessed
I have been learning frequently the mystery of ONE thing God does ...
We will experience loss to know and appreciate gain.
When there is death, we appreciate life. When there is sickness, we appreciate health. When there is sin, we appreciate grace. When there is grief, we appreciate comfort. When there is trial, we appreciate conquest.
God doesn't withhold an easy life to make us suffer. He allows us to experience life so we can appreciate eternal life. He allows us to experience separation from Him so we can appreciate the reunion to come. He allows us to feel conviction so we can appreciate Jesus's sacrifice for us on the cross.
I have seen this is numerous ways throughout the past few months in practical ways. God has given me a multitude of glimpses into how my life could be harder to make me appreciate where I am.
I heard a testimony about a woman who lost her baby in childbirth when the cord wrapped around her neck, and they couldn't get her out in time. It made 40 hours of labor look easy.
I struggled with sleep deprivation when Bree was a newborn, and then my sister had a baby with complicated health issues, and it made losing sleep a lot less important.
I struggled handling Bree throughout the day, and then I started watching two babies ... And it made having just Bree seem like cake.
I see loss, and I appreciate gain. Just as God intended.
We will experience loss to know and appreciate gain.
When there is death, we appreciate life. When there is sickness, we appreciate health. When there is sin, we appreciate grace. When there is grief, we appreciate comfort. When there is trial, we appreciate conquest.
God doesn't withhold an easy life to make us suffer. He allows us to experience life so we can appreciate eternal life. He allows us to experience separation from Him so we can appreciate the reunion to come. He allows us to feel conviction so we can appreciate Jesus's sacrifice for us on the cross.
I have seen this is numerous ways throughout the past few months in practical ways. God has given me a multitude of glimpses into how my life could be harder to make me appreciate where I am.
I heard a testimony about a woman who lost her baby in childbirth when the cord wrapped around her neck, and they couldn't get her out in time. It made 40 hours of labor look easy.
I struggled with sleep deprivation when Bree was a newborn, and then my sister had a baby with complicated health issues, and it made losing sleep a lot less important.
I struggled handling Bree throughout the day, and then I started watching two babies ... And it made having just Bree seem like cake.
I see loss, and I appreciate gain. Just as God intended.
Tuesday, October 18, 2011
Sealed by God
Revelation makes one thing very clear: there is a very visible seal on our forehead if we belong to Christ.
In the Old Testament, priests wore a turban on their heads with a plate on the front that said Holy is the Lord! This was there physical seal that they belonged to Christ. Everyone would see it, whether they acted holy or not.
Now, we are Christ's new priesthood - based on the New Testament. And make no mistake - we have the same seal. It is just a spiritual seal. And God promises that it is very visible to Him, the Devil, and all principalities of light and darkness. There is stamp across our foreheads that says HOLY is the LORD (or something else marking God's ownership of our hearts).
As I think about it, I kind of wish it were actually visible.
I can picture Bree sitting in a car on her first date with a boy, and it says HOLY is the LORD across her forehead. Mood killer?
If people actually saw our seal, wouldn't we be more intentional about our words and actions? You might see a sealed person at the checkout counter screaming at the worker so you walk up and ask, "holy is the Lord?" You have a sealed person harboring unforgiveness so you ask, "holy is the Lord?"
You get it.
So, if you see me with a new tattoo on my forehead, it won't be a complete shock.
Holy is the Lord!
In the Old Testament, priests wore a turban on their heads with a plate on the front that said Holy is the Lord! This was there physical seal that they belonged to Christ. Everyone would see it, whether they acted holy or not.
Now, we are Christ's new priesthood - based on the New Testament. And make no mistake - we have the same seal. It is just a spiritual seal. And God promises that it is very visible to Him, the Devil, and all principalities of light and darkness. There is stamp across our foreheads that says HOLY is the LORD (or something else marking God's ownership of our hearts).
As I think about it, I kind of wish it were actually visible.
I can picture Bree sitting in a car on her first date with a boy, and it says HOLY is the LORD across her forehead. Mood killer?
If people actually saw our seal, wouldn't we be more intentional about our words and actions? You might see a sealed person at the checkout counter screaming at the worker so you walk up and ask, "holy is the Lord?" You have a sealed person harboring unforgiveness so you ask, "holy is the Lord?"
You get it.
So, if you see me with a new tattoo on my forehead, it won't be a complete shock.
Holy is the Lord!
Monday, October 17, 2011
Overcomer
We were created to be conquerors, overcomers.
I feel like all too often, I feel conquered. Stuck UNDER the things I struggle with rather than standing on top of them.
Romans 8:37 says we are more than conquerors through Him who loves us.
It's not about my past - what I overcame 5 years ago. What am I overcoming today? Do I continue to stand ON the struggles of my life now, or do I get stuck under their weight? We were never meant to be buried beneath life's troubles.
So, today I will overcome. Tomorrow I will overcome. And I will keep overcoming until I get to the throne of God wearing my long, white robe (currently studying Revelation).
I feel like all too often, I feel conquered. Stuck UNDER the things I struggle with rather than standing on top of them.
Romans 8:37 says we are more than conquerors through Him who loves us.
It's not about my past - what I overcame 5 years ago. What am I overcoming today? Do I continue to stand ON the struggles of my life now, or do I get stuck under their weight? We were never meant to be buried beneath life's troubles.
So, today I will overcome. Tomorrow I will overcome. And I will keep overcoming until I get to the throne of God wearing my long, white robe (currently studying Revelation).
Monday, October 3, 2011
Timeless Advice
I was thinking about something yesterday in the shower (pretty much my only time to think without distraction).
Our parents are basically being told everything they did with us was wrong, and I think that's completely unfair.
I think older women have awesome advice. I think in some cases times have just changed. It has nothing to do with them raising us wrong but more with how the world is now.
For instance, getting hit by a semi traveling 70 miles an hour was probably fairly unlikely when Laura Ingalls was a kid, so they didn't need car seats and car seat regulations like we do now. Were they wrong? No, just different times and different circumstances.
Why didn't Ma break out her Medela breast pump and freeze a bottle for Pa so she could ride down to the local church bake sale without the kiddos? Because women were the child-rearers and homemakers. They didn't consider the possibility of "me" time very often.
I won't even go into Germ-X ...
My point is that our parents did what was best at that time, and that's all we can do as moms: our best for where we are at right now.
So, thank you mom. I turned out great, and I pray Bree will too!
Our parents are basically being told everything they did with us was wrong, and I think that's completely unfair.
I think older women have awesome advice. I think in some cases times have just changed. It has nothing to do with them raising us wrong but more with how the world is now.
For instance, getting hit by a semi traveling 70 miles an hour was probably fairly unlikely when Laura Ingalls was a kid, so they didn't need car seats and car seat regulations like we do now. Were they wrong? No, just different times and different circumstances.
Why didn't Ma break out her Medela breast pump and freeze a bottle for Pa so she could ride down to the local church bake sale without the kiddos? Because women were the child-rearers and homemakers. They didn't consider the possibility of "me" time very often.
I won't even go into Germ-X ...
My point is that our parents did what was best at that time, and that's all we can do as moms: our best for where we are at right now.
So, thank you mom. I turned out great, and I pray Bree will too!
Tuesday, September 20, 2011
Resolutions Revisted
So, as December fast approaches, I need to make sure I am working on my yearly goals. So here's an update:
Physical: Obviously ... I would like to return to my pre-pregnancy weight in 2011 (preferably sooner rather than later), but that sounds too easy so I would like to add a challenge to run a marathon. I'm not a runner. I actually hate running. But running a marathon has always been something I'd like to accomplish. I don't know why. That's pretty lofty for me. UPDATE: I have actually surpassed my pre-pregnancy weight. My favorite jeans from college are actually one of my favorites again. I am also signed up for a 5K in October (yes, that is a marathon to me).
Spiritual: Obviously ... I should be reading my Bible each day. But let's be honest, I don't. I'm going to work on that, but my goal is to read the Bible in its entirety. There are certain books I've never read ... so I want to have read every book of the Bible by the end of the year. UPDATE: Doing fairly well, I have started a Bible study on Revelation, but I need to do some of the lesser-known Old Testament books.
Emotional: This is probably harder for me than thinking about running a marathon, but my big "heart" goal is to really try to work on taking criticism. It's never been a strong suit, and I'd really like to work on that. This isn't really a measurable goal, but we'll try it. UPDATE: I would say accomplished. As previously posted, people tell me I look tired all the time, and it would have used to upset me. Now, I don't care. I am tired. I do look a mess. It's a phase, and hopefully it will pass soon.
Mental/Educational: I'd like to read more (whaaat?). I know - let me explain! I'd like to read 12 books (one a month) that ARE NOT Christian fiction. Some might be classics that I've never read/finished. Some might be memoirs from people. Basically anything but Karen Kingsbury or Francine Rivers. :) UPDATE: Not doing so hot here. I have read The Giver and Crazy Love - but so far, that's it (besides a ton of baby books).
Physical: Obviously ... I would like to return to my pre-pregnancy weight in 2011 (preferably sooner rather than later), but that sounds too easy so I would like to add a challenge to run a marathon. I'm not a runner. I actually hate running. But running a marathon has always been something I'd like to accomplish. I don't know why. That's pretty lofty for me. UPDATE: I have actually surpassed my pre-pregnancy weight. My favorite jeans from college are actually one of my favorites again. I am also signed up for a 5K in October (yes, that is a marathon to me).
Spiritual: Obviously ... I should be reading my Bible each day. But let's be honest, I don't. I'm going to work on that, but my goal is to read the Bible in its entirety. There are certain books I've never read ... so I want to have read every book of the Bible by the end of the year. UPDATE: Doing fairly well, I have started a Bible study on Revelation, but I need to do some of the lesser-known Old Testament books.
Emotional: This is probably harder for me than thinking about running a marathon, but my big "heart" goal is to really try to work on taking criticism. It's never been a strong suit, and I'd really like to work on that. This isn't really a measurable goal, but we'll try it. UPDATE: I would say accomplished. As previously posted, people tell me I look tired all the time, and it would have used to upset me. Now, I don't care. I am tired. I do look a mess. It's a phase, and hopefully it will pass soon.
Mental/Educational: I'd like to read more (whaaat?). I know - let me explain! I'd like to read 12 books (one a month) that ARE NOT Christian fiction. Some might be classics that I've never read/finished. Some might be memoirs from people. Basically anything but Karen Kingsbury or Francine Rivers. :) UPDATE: Not doing so hot here. I have read The Giver and Crazy Love - but so far, that's it (besides a ton of baby books).
Saturday, September 17, 2011
McDonalds Mayhem
Below is an actual conversation I had with the cashier at McDonalds (at the drive-through), with my thoughts added.
After reviewing my order at the window ...
Him: How old is the baby?
Me: 4 months (No, the happy meal isn't for her, it's for me. Don't judge me).
Him: Is she yours?
Me: Every day (no, I stole her and stopped to get a happy meal before we flee the state).
Him: Wow, you don't look old enough to have a baby.
Me: I get that a lot (But apparently I look too old for a happy meal, ironic).
Next time, just give me my delicious food, McDonalds man.
After reviewing my order at the window ...
Him: How old is the baby?
Me: 4 months (No, the happy meal isn't for her, it's for me. Don't judge me).
Him: Is she yours?
Me: Every day (no, I stole her and stopped to get a happy meal before we flee the state).
Him: Wow, you don't look old enough to have a baby.
Me: I get that a lot (But apparently I look too old for a happy meal, ironic).
Next time, just give me my delicious food, McDonalds man.
Thursday, September 15, 2011
I'm an Expert ...
I had a great discussion with my table at MOPS this morning. The message couldn't have been more timely. It was about decision making (see earlier post on how my decision making skills are going).
But I was encouraged by their overall message to me that babies are resilient.
Let's be honest: none of the baby books say that.
They all say to do it their way or all these bad things will happen ... or another book says to do it THEIR way or all THESE bad things will happen.
So what they are both saying is that bad things will happen - no matter which choice I make.
And that is terrifying to a new mom who is trying to make all the "right" choices.
I am learning to start by doing what feels right for us ... because, as a great friend told me, I am the expert on Bree.
But I was encouraged by their overall message to me that babies are resilient.
Let's be honest: none of the baby books say that.
They all say to do it their way or all these bad things will happen ... or another book says to do it THEIR way or all THESE bad things will happen.
So what they are both saying is that bad things will happen - no matter which choice I make.
And that is terrifying to a new mom who is trying to make all the "right" choices.
I am learning to start by doing what feels right for us ... because, as a great friend told me, I am the expert on Bree.
Monday, September 12, 2011
A Baby Blues Morning
As I sit down to a quiet lunch with Giselle, consisting of cold milk and a PBJ, it is anything but quiet in my head.
Since I have brought Bree home, I have consistently felt like I am doing a poor job as a mom.
Every minute of every day I am constantly wondering how I should be doing things, when I should be doing things, what I should and should not be doing. I Google every question. I poll every friend or relative I have. I research and research. I make lists. I read books. I pray, no I beg God for wisdom.
I love her so much. I want to do everything right for her.
I pretend like I have it all together, but each day I sit in her nursery, watch her sleep, and cry.
I don't know what I'm doing. I don't even know how you learn. I feel like I am doing everything wrong.
Naps. Bedtime. Nap routines. Bedtime routines. Pacifiers. Solid foods. Schedules. Swaddling. Rocking. Bouncing.
Everything I do seems inadequete except one ...
Nursing.
Nursing is the one thing I love to do, and I am good at doing. It is the only time during the day when she and I sit and enjoy each other - and I don't have any doubts. I know I am doing it right - and well. I love doing it, and I know she loves it.
So right now, I am hanging on to what I am good at to get me through this day.
Since I have brought Bree home, I have consistently felt like I am doing a poor job as a mom.
Every minute of every day I am constantly wondering how I should be doing things, when I should be doing things, what I should and should not be doing. I Google every question. I poll every friend or relative I have. I research and research. I make lists. I read books. I pray, no I beg God for wisdom.
I love her so much. I want to do everything right for her.
I pretend like I have it all together, but each day I sit in her nursery, watch her sleep, and cry.
I don't know what I'm doing. I don't even know how you learn. I feel like I am doing everything wrong.
Naps. Bedtime. Nap routines. Bedtime routines. Pacifiers. Solid foods. Schedules. Swaddling. Rocking. Bouncing.
Everything I do seems inadequete except one ...
Nursing.
Nursing is the one thing I love to do, and I am good at doing. It is the only time during the day when she and I sit and enjoy each other - and I don't have any doubts. I know I am doing it right - and well. I love doing it, and I know she loves it.
So right now, I am hanging on to what I am good at to get me through this day.
Sunday, September 11, 2011
A Dedication
As Bree's dedication quickly approaches, I find myself overwhelmed with joy and fear.
Joy that we are publicly declaring our trust in the Lord to be with her always and to help us raise her in a way that honors Him.
Fear that we are about to publicly declare our responsibility for her spiritual upbringing.
Doesn't that just seem terrifying? I mean ... we are going to be her role models. We are going to be the first example of Christ's love, sacrifice, grace, and so on.
I need to continue to pray daily for wisdom to do the job justice because it's a big one.
I want Bree to love God more than anything: more than Brent or me, more than herself, more than her desires, even more than Reese Cups.
But for her to do that, Brent and I need to do that. Because kids are imitators. The real work needs to happen in our lives first, and the ripple effect with be positive in Bree's life.
Pray for us, please and thank you!
Joy that we are publicly declaring our trust in the Lord to be with her always and to help us raise her in a way that honors Him.
Fear that we are about to publicly declare our responsibility for her spiritual upbringing.
Doesn't that just seem terrifying? I mean ... we are going to be her role models. We are going to be the first example of Christ's love, sacrifice, grace, and so on.
I need to continue to pray daily for wisdom to do the job justice because it's a big one.
I want Bree to love God more than anything: more than Brent or me, more than herself, more than her desires, even more than Reese Cups.
But for her to do that, Brent and I need to do that. Because kids are imitators. The real work needs to happen in our lives first, and the ripple effect with be positive in Bree's life.
Pray for us, please and thank you!
Saturday, September 10, 2011
Lessons and Accomplishments of Late
I can now recite almost the entire movie of Megamind from memory, which I did last night in bed with Brent. Until he finally told me to stop talking and go to sleep. I think he's jealous.
I have learned DIY really should be NGD - never gets done.
I can now walk to Target each morning and browse without buying. It's totally lame, but my budget appreciates then break.
I have learned going to the bathroom without a baby in tow is a thing of the past. You get over the stage fright pretty quick.
I can now shower in 2.5 minutes - sans shaving (you just can't do that fast lest you end up bleeding all over your house).
I have learned 'babies' are something to add to my list of Things Italian Greyhounds Hate - along with the wind, rain, noises, veggies, other dogs, leashes, baby gates, and spoons.
I can now successfully do most daily tasks with one hand. I am working on doing things with my feet because those monkeys have clever ways of doing things when their hands are full. Brent has vetoed any feet touching things from the dishwasher.
I have learned babies really appreciate classic rock - Guns 'n Roses, Ozzie, ACDC, etc.
I can now laugh and agree when someone says 'You look tired' and not cry. Because I am tired, and I appreciate the honesty. Thanks, Mark Patterson.
I have learned my husband is as amazing at being a father as he is being a husband. And that totally rocks - for Bree and me. We are working on his love for Giselle - I mean, no one is perfect.
I have learned DIY really should be NGD - never gets done.
I can now walk to Target each morning and browse without buying. It's totally lame, but my budget appreciates then break.
I have learned going to the bathroom without a baby in tow is a thing of the past. You get over the stage fright pretty quick.
I can now shower in 2.5 minutes - sans shaving (you just can't do that fast lest you end up bleeding all over your house).
I have learned 'babies' are something to add to my list of Things Italian Greyhounds Hate - along with the wind, rain, noises, veggies, other dogs, leashes, baby gates, and spoons.
I can now successfully do most daily tasks with one hand. I am working on doing things with my feet because those monkeys have clever ways of doing things when their hands are full. Brent has vetoed any feet touching things from the dishwasher.
I have learned babies really appreciate classic rock - Guns 'n Roses, Ozzie, ACDC, etc.
I can now laugh and agree when someone says 'You look tired' and not cry. Because I am tired, and I appreciate the honesty. Thanks, Mark Patterson.
I have learned my husband is as amazing at being a father as he is being a husband. And that totally rocks - for Bree and me. We are working on his love for Giselle - I mean, no one is perfect.
Saturday, September 3, 2011
America's Favorite Verse
You know it.
Say it with me.
"For I know the plans I have for you," says the Lord. "They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope."
Jeremiah 29:11
No verse has ever been as quoted as this one. We memorize it. We put it on walls and in frames. We love this verse.
Of course we do, it's all about us.
And we're pretty self-centered (see previous post on our own "awesomeness").
The thing is ... it's a great verse. But we focus on US. If we continue on to verses 12 and 13, we find an even more important message from Christ:
"Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart." (emphasis mine)
We don't just receive. We have responsibility. We have to call on the Lord. We have to come and pray. We have to seek Him.
The next time you think of this verse, remember the role we have to play in it too.
Say it with me.
"For I know the plans I have for you," says the Lord. "They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope."
Jeremiah 29:11
No verse has ever been as quoted as this one. We memorize it. We put it on walls and in frames. We love this verse.
Of course we do, it's all about us.
And we're pretty self-centered (see previous post on our own "awesomeness").
The thing is ... it's a great verse. But we focus on US. If we continue on to verses 12 and 13, we find an even more important message from Christ:
"Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart." (emphasis mine)
We don't just receive. We have responsibility. We have to call on the Lord. We have to come and pray. We have to seek Him.
The next time you think of this verse, remember the role we have to play in it too.
Friday, September 2, 2011
The Bitter Truth
This is a message I heard recently that is contrary to what we've heard pretty much our whole lives - at least for me.
We happen to love ourselves - a lot.
We tend to think, Why wouldn't God love me? Of course he loves me. ... I'm pretty awesome!
Unfortunately, the message of the gospel is there's nothing awesome about me.
We are sinners - from birth to death. Selfish, self-centered, easily angered, unholy, jealous, unloving, unforgiving, ungrateful, and probably a whole lot more ...
God's love for us is based on WHO HE IS and not our awesomeness.
We think we are valuable - which is true. But we aren't loved by God because we're valuable; we are valuable because we're loved by God.
Just let that sink in.
We definitely have value. We just don't have it on our own. We aren't awesome. We aren't perfect - not even close. Christ's love, Christ's birth, Christ's sacrifice for us on the cross - those make us valuable. In Him we find our true value.
Romans 8:38-39
"And I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from God’s love. Neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither our fears for today nor our worries about tomorrow — not even the powers of hell can separate us from God’s love. No power in the sky above or in the earth below — indeed, nothing in all creation will ever be able to separate us from the love of God that is revealed in Christ Jesus our Lord." (emphasis mine)
We happen to love ourselves - a lot.
We tend to think, Why wouldn't God love me? Of course he loves me. ... I'm pretty awesome!
Unfortunately, the message of the gospel is there's nothing awesome about me.
We are sinners - from birth to death. Selfish, self-centered, easily angered, unholy, jealous, unloving, unforgiving, ungrateful, and probably a whole lot more ...
God's love for us is based on WHO HE IS and not our awesomeness.
We think we are valuable - which is true. But we aren't loved by God because we're valuable; we are valuable because we're loved by God.
Just let that sink in.
We definitely have value. We just don't have it on our own. We aren't awesome. We aren't perfect - not even close. Christ's love, Christ's birth, Christ's sacrifice for us on the cross - those make us valuable. In Him we find our true value.
Romans 8:38-39
"And I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from God’s love. Neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither our fears for today nor our worries about tomorrow — not even the powers of hell can separate us from God’s love. No power in the sky above or in the earth below — indeed, nothing in all creation will ever be able to separate us from the love of God that is revealed in Christ Jesus our Lord." (emphasis mine)
Monday, August 29, 2011
Sunday, August 28, 2011
Longing for Paradise?
I heard one of the most convicting messages on Saturday morning at a training session for working in our kid's ministry at church.
We sometimes think of or portray Jesus as only a means to get to Heaven.
Everyone has a picture of Heaven in their mind. For some it's harps and angels and clouds and candy; for others, italian greyhounds, family, and friends.
One thing is usually missing from our view of this paradise: Jesus.
Jesus isn't our ticket into heaven. We quote Jesus a lot saying "I am the way, and the truth, and the life" -- but we often paraphrase the next part and just say Jesus is the only way to get to Heaven.
However, the Bible clearly says ... "no one comes TO THE FATHER, except through Me" (John 14:6).
This idea was confirmed to me when I was in church this morning. A couple was sharing activities they did with their kids to teach them about Jesus, and the first one was a challenge. They put something at the top of the stairs ($20, he said) and said, "You can have that, but you have to get there without stepping on the stairs." After many failed attempts at climbing the walls, the daughter asks her dad to carry her up the stairs, which doesn't break the rule because SHE isn't touching the stairs. The dad related himself to Jesus and that Jesus is the only way to get to Heaven ...
A great lesson ... but the goal is not to get to Heaven. Our daily goal is to seek Christ. The prize shouldn't be a magical paradise.
God is the prize. TO BE WITH GOD.
While on the cross, Jesus looks to thief beside Him and says, "Truly I tell you, today you will be with me in paradise" (Luke 23:43). I think all too often we dream about and focus on the paradise and forget that His emphasis is on the "WITH ME" part.
We sometimes think of or portray Jesus as only a means to get to Heaven.
Everyone has a picture of Heaven in their mind. For some it's harps and angels and clouds and candy; for others, italian greyhounds, family, and friends.
One thing is usually missing from our view of this paradise: Jesus.
Jesus isn't our ticket into heaven. We quote Jesus a lot saying "I am the way, and the truth, and the life" -- but we often paraphrase the next part and just say Jesus is the only way to get to Heaven.
However, the Bible clearly says ... "no one comes TO THE FATHER, except through Me" (John 14:6).
This idea was confirmed to me when I was in church this morning. A couple was sharing activities they did with their kids to teach them about Jesus, and the first one was a challenge. They put something at the top of the stairs ($20, he said) and said, "You can have that, but you have to get there without stepping on the stairs." After many failed attempts at climbing the walls, the daughter asks her dad to carry her up the stairs, which doesn't break the rule because SHE isn't touching the stairs. The dad related himself to Jesus and that Jesus is the only way to get to Heaven ...
A great lesson ... but the goal is not to get to Heaven. Our daily goal is to seek Christ. The prize shouldn't be a magical paradise.
God is the prize. TO BE WITH GOD.
While on the cross, Jesus looks to thief beside Him and says, "Truly I tell you, today you will be with me in paradise" (Luke 23:43). I think all too often we dream about and focus on the paradise and forget that His emphasis is on the "WITH ME" part.
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
A Fabulous First Child
I am finding there is a benefit to the time with Bree being an only child. I realized it when I was reading a post by my sister (over at Blessed Simplicity).
I have time.
Time to focus on just her. Time to hold her safely and gently. Time to sit and play with her - and neglect the chores. Time to rock her to sleep. Time to soothe her when she is upset. Time to enjoy each stage she enters and savor every moment. Time to just watch her sleep ... because sleep smiles are my absolute favorite.
Someday I am going to have 6 kids running circles around me, and I won't have the time or energy to do everything as patiently and gracefully as I do now. I want to enjoy this and enjoy her.
She is our little blessing and answer to prayer. And I never want to forget that.
I have time.
Time to focus on just her. Time to hold her safely and gently. Time to sit and play with her - and neglect the chores. Time to rock her to sleep. Time to soothe her when she is upset. Time to enjoy each stage she enters and savor every moment. Time to just watch her sleep ... because sleep smiles are my absolute favorite.
Someday I am going to have 6 kids running circles around me, and I won't have the time or energy to do everything as patiently and gracefully as I do now. I want to enjoy this and enjoy her.
She is our little blessing and answer to prayer. And I never want to forget that.
Monday, August 22, 2011
Singin' the Baby Blues
My mom explained that the things I am feeling might be symptoms of baby blues. I found this quote about baby blues, and it pretty much sums me up.
"She's exhausted, she's unsure of herself, and, if it's her first child, she's never done any of this before. No wonder she feels overwhelmed!"
I guess it's good to know I am not just crazy - or a bad mom.
This is a phase that will - Lord willing - not last too long.
Please pray for encouragement, support, and strength.
"She's exhausted, she's unsure of herself, and, if it's her first child, she's never done any of this before. No wonder she feels overwhelmed!"
I guess it's good to know I am not just crazy - or a bad mom.
This is a phase that will - Lord willing - not last too long.
Please pray for encouragement, support, and strength.
Square One?
I have felt completely overwhelmed these past four months. Just when I thought I was getting a handle on wifehood, Bree enters the picture. Most days I feel disorganized, disheveled, and disappointed with my performance in both my roles. I feel like I am failing as a mom and as a wife. So is it back to square one? Worse than that, I'm not even at square one! What's before square one, you ask?
Learning to play the game.
That's exactly where I am at again. Learning to play this game of motherhood and wifehood, together.
I have to relearn how to schedule my time. I have to relearn how to prioritize. I have to relearn what free time looks like and how I use it. I have to squeeze in showers, reading, and blogging. I need a daily plan. But most of all ...
I need Jesus.
God Almighty is the only way I will be able to succeed because I absolutely cannot do this on my own. I don't have the wisdom, energy, or patience needed to accomplish such a task. Because I don't just want to be a good mom or a good wife. I want to be an awesome mom and an awesome wife - but more importantly, I want to be a Godly woman.
I want to be clothed in dignity and grace. I want to bind love and faithfulness around my neck and write them on my heart.
I find encouragement from the wife of noble character in Proverbs 31 and pray that God would make me more like her and Him each day.
10 A wife of noble character who can find?
She is worth far more than rubies.
11 Her husband has full confidence in her
and lacks nothing of value.
12 She brings him good, not harm,
all the days of her life.
13 She selects wool and flax
and works with eager hands.
14 She is like the merchant ships,
bringing her food from afar.
15 She gets up while it is still night;
she provides food for her family
and portions for her female servants.
16 She considers a field and buys it;
out of her earnings she plants a vineyard.
17 She sets about her work vigorously;
her arms are strong for her tasks.
18 She sees that her trading is profitable,
and her lamp does not go out at night.
19 In her hand she holds the distaff
and grasps the spindle with her fingers.
20 She opens her arms to the poor
and extends her hands to the needy.
21 When it snows, she has no fear for her household;
for all of them are clothed in scarlet.
22 She makes coverings for her bed;
she is clothed in fine linen and purple.
23 Her husband is respected at the city gate,
where he takes his seat among the elders of the land.
24 She makes linen garments and sells them,
and supplies the merchants with sashes.
25 She is clothed with strength and dignity;
she can laugh at the days to come.
26 She speaks with wisdom,
and faithful instruction is on her tongue.
27 She watches over the affairs of her household
and does not eat the bread of idleness.
28 Her children arise and call her blessed;
her husband also, and he praises her:
29 “Many women do noble things,
but you surpass them all.”
30 Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting;
but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised.
31 Honor her for all that her hands have done,
and let her works bring her praise at the city gate.
Learning to play the game.
That's exactly where I am at again. Learning to play this game of motherhood and wifehood, together.
I have to relearn how to schedule my time. I have to relearn how to prioritize. I have to relearn what free time looks like and how I use it. I have to squeeze in showers, reading, and blogging. I need a daily plan. But most of all ...
I need Jesus.
God Almighty is the only way I will be able to succeed because I absolutely cannot do this on my own. I don't have the wisdom, energy, or patience needed to accomplish such a task. Because I don't just want to be a good mom or a good wife. I want to be an awesome mom and an awesome wife - but more importantly, I want to be a Godly woman.
I want to be clothed in dignity and grace. I want to bind love and faithfulness around my neck and write them on my heart.
I find encouragement from the wife of noble character in Proverbs 31 and pray that God would make me more like her and Him each day.
10 A wife of noble character who can find?
She is worth far more than rubies.
11 Her husband has full confidence in her
and lacks nothing of value.
12 She brings him good, not harm,
all the days of her life.
13 She selects wool and flax
and works with eager hands.
14 She is like the merchant ships,
bringing her food from afar.
15 She gets up while it is still night;
she provides food for her family
and portions for her female servants.
16 She considers a field and buys it;
out of her earnings she plants a vineyard.
17 She sets about her work vigorously;
her arms are strong for her tasks.
18 She sees that her trading is profitable,
and her lamp does not go out at night.
19 In her hand she holds the distaff
and grasps the spindle with her fingers.
20 She opens her arms to the poor
and extends her hands to the needy.
21 When it snows, she has no fear for her household;
for all of them are clothed in scarlet.
22 She makes coverings for her bed;
she is clothed in fine linen and purple.
23 Her husband is respected at the city gate,
where he takes his seat among the elders of the land.
24 She makes linen garments and sells them,
and supplies the merchants with sashes.
25 She is clothed with strength and dignity;
she can laugh at the days to come.
26 She speaks with wisdom,
and faithful instruction is on her tongue.
27 She watches over the affairs of her household
and does not eat the bread of idleness.
28 Her children arise and call her blessed;
her husband also, and he praises her:
29 “Many women do noble things,
but you surpass them all.”
30 Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting;
but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised.
31 Honor her for all that her hands have done,
and let her works bring her praise at the city gate.
Thursday, August 18, 2011
What's Wrong with Praying for Safety?
I was completely convicted while - again - reading Crazy Love.
We often pray for safety. Safety in travels, safety from disease or illness, safety from pain or harm.
It is on our hearts even more when we have kids.
I prayed - every night - for Bree to not get bitten by Brown Recluse spiders (which are very present in our house and in her nursery). It was literally driving me crazy with worry and fear.
The problem is that we've made safety our number one priority. We've taken away God's control of our lives and His knowledge of what is best for us -- for HIS glory.
The hardest question I have to ask myself is: what if God's plan is for something to happen to Bree or to Brent? Am I willing to trust Him still, or do I abandon ship? What if God has a purpose for His kingdom that involves one of them getting hurt or being ill?
God's ways are not our ways.
My prayer each night now is that God would use Bree's life to glorify Him and to further His kingdom - however He sees fit. I wouldn't want to keep her from His purpose for her life because I am afraid I won't be able to handle what He has in store.
Now -- I'm human -- I do hope His plan is to keep her perfectly safe from ALL HARM for her entire life. But if it's not, which I doubt it is, I pray for strength to endure the challenges that we will face with grace and trust.
We often pray for safety. Safety in travels, safety from disease or illness, safety from pain or harm.
It is on our hearts even more when we have kids.
I prayed - every night - for Bree to not get bitten by Brown Recluse spiders (which are very present in our house and in her nursery). It was literally driving me crazy with worry and fear.
The problem is that we've made safety our number one priority. We've taken away God's control of our lives and His knowledge of what is best for us -- for HIS glory.
The hardest question I have to ask myself is: what if God's plan is for something to happen to Bree or to Brent? Am I willing to trust Him still, or do I abandon ship? What if God has a purpose for His kingdom that involves one of them getting hurt or being ill?
God's ways are not our ways.
My prayer each night now is that God would use Bree's life to glorify Him and to further His kingdom - however He sees fit. I wouldn't want to keep her from His purpose for her life because I am afraid I won't be able to handle what He has in store.
Now -- I'm human -- I do hope His plan is to keep her perfectly safe from ALL HARM for her entire life. But if it's not, which I doubt it is, I pray for strength to endure the challenges that we will face with grace and trust.
Wednesday, August 17, 2011
Forgiveness Faux-Pas
“If you love those who love you, what credit is that to you? Even sinners love those who love them. And if you do good to those who are good to you, what credit is that to you? Even sinners do that. And if you lend to those from whom you expect repayment, what credit is that to you? Even sinners lend to sinners, expecting to be repaid in full. But love your enemies, do good to them, and lend to them without expecting to get anything back. Then your reward will be great, and you will be children of the Most High, because he is kind to the ungrateful and wicked. Be merciful, just as your Father is merciful.
“Do not judge, and you will not be judged. Do not condemn, and you will not be condemned. Forgive, and you will be forgiven. Give, and it will be given to you. A good measure, pressed down, shaken together and running over, will be poured into your lap. For with the measure you use, it will be measured to you.”
Luke 6
I've been reading in Crazy Love the past couple of weeks, and there is a lot of great stuff in that book. Yesterday I was sitting at Barnes and Noble while Bree slept (ironically where I am right now, again) reading chapter 8. It was a "profile of the obsessed" and it discusses what a person who is obsessed with God looks and acts like.
I had three major convictions, but it is the first that I will discuss today.
I recently realized I have a major sin issue with forgiveness. It's not necessarily that I have trouble offering forgiveness because I don't. I know it my heart that God has forgiven me for a lot worse than whatever someone does to me. I also know that if I withhold forgiveness, God will also withhold forgiveness for me - and we can't have that because I mess up daily!
My issue with forgiveness is the forgetting aspect - the casting it as far as the east is from the west and remembering it no more. That part. Can I get an Amen? Because I think a lot of people are onboard with this weakness.
It's easy to say I forgive you. It's not easy to forget what was done, forget the pain, forget how the person made you feel. After offering forgiveness, my tendency is avoiding the person/situation to avoid further hurt or repeated offenses.
How unlike Christ we are.
Luke tells us in chapter 6 verses 32-36 that we aren't set apart from sinners if we only love those who love us.
We a called to love those hate us. Love those who hurt us. Love those who cause us pain. Not just forgive - but LOVE.
I do a horrible job of that, and for that, I pray daily for repentance when I can't control my thoughts and old hurts creep up again. When chatting with my sister about this, she made a great point. It is not natural to forget offenses against us, but we have to take our thoughts captive. Daily.
So, Lord willing, I will be trying to be a lot more forgetful when it comes to pain ... and a lot more in control of my mind.
Lord willing.
“Do not judge, and you will not be judged. Do not condemn, and you will not be condemned. Forgive, and you will be forgiven. Give, and it will be given to you. A good measure, pressed down, shaken together and running over, will be poured into your lap. For with the measure you use, it will be measured to you.”
Luke 6
I've been reading in Crazy Love the past couple of weeks, and there is a lot of great stuff in that book. Yesterday I was sitting at Barnes and Noble while Bree slept (ironically where I am right now, again) reading chapter 8. It was a "profile of the obsessed" and it discusses what a person who is obsessed with God looks and acts like.
I had three major convictions, but it is the first that I will discuss today.
I recently realized I have a major sin issue with forgiveness. It's not necessarily that I have trouble offering forgiveness because I don't. I know it my heart that God has forgiven me for a lot worse than whatever someone does to me. I also know that if I withhold forgiveness, God will also withhold forgiveness for me - and we can't have that because I mess up daily!
My issue with forgiveness is the forgetting aspect - the casting it as far as the east is from the west and remembering it no more. That part. Can I get an Amen? Because I think a lot of people are onboard with this weakness.
It's easy to say I forgive you. It's not easy to forget what was done, forget the pain, forget how the person made you feel. After offering forgiveness, my tendency is avoiding the person/situation to avoid further hurt or repeated offenses.
How unlike Christ we are.
Luke tells us in chapter 6 verses 32-36 that we aren't set apart from sinners if we only love those who love us.
We a called to love those hate us. Love those who hurt us. Love those who cause us pain. Not just forgive - but LOVE.
I do a horrible job of that, and for that, I pray daily for repentance when I can't control my thoughts and old hurts creep up again. When chatting with my sister about this, she made a great point. It is not natural to forget offenses against us, but we have to take our thoughts captive. Daily.
So, Lord willing, I will be trying to be a lot more forgetful when it comes to pain ... and a lot more in control of my mind.
Lord willing.
Thursday, August 4, 2011
Every Woman's Battle
The battle for our men is not fought with weapons and warfare but on our knees with prayer and petition.
I am realizing this more with each passing day. Our men are under attack daily from hundreds of different enemies. I recently started a prayer initiative, in which I was praying daily for Brent and Bree using The Power of the Praying Woman series. Through it I realized just how important praying for our husbands is. Daily.
Our men's hearts, minds, eyes, and souls are being sought after each day, and we are fools if we don't see it. Though we are called to be a help mate - not a spiritual leader - it does not exempt us from all responsibility. We are to support our husbands and cover them in prayer.
I urge you to join me in this fight, and pray for our men today. Sons. Husbands. Fathers. Brothers. Coworkers. Uncles. Grandpas. As a leader, as a father, as a worker, and as a man in general.
Be a part of the solution.
I am realizing this more with each passing day. Our men are under attack daily from hundreds of different enemies. I recently started a prayer initiative, in which I was praying daily for Brent and Bree using The Power of the Praying Woman series. Through it I realized just how important praying for our husbands is. Daily.
Our men's hearts, minds, eyes, and souls are being sought after each day, and we are fools if we don't see it. Though we are called to be a help mate - not a spiritual leader - it does not exempt us from all responsibility. We are to support our husbands and cover them in prayer.
I urge you to join me in this fight, and pray for our men today. Sons. Husbands. Fathers. Brothers. Coworkers. Uncles. Grandpas. As a leader, as a father, as a worker, and as a man in general.
Be a part of the solution.
Friday, June 24, 2011
New Mom
So - I was told for months and months how crazy I would be as a new mom. Luckily, I knew ahead of time to be praying for it, and I think I have side-stepped a lot of it. I don't really mind leaving Bree with people (that I trust of course), I don't mind letting people hold her (same thing, that I trust), we took her out from day one, and I let Brent do as much as he wants with her.
The one thing I am struggling with is the wisdom to know when to move her into the nursery. When we originally picked the upstairs bedroom for her nursery, I thought no problem! Now that she's here it feels like it is 100 miles away. I bought a video monitor, and even that doesn't ease my anxiety.
You'd think I'd be fine with it. After all, I prayed over her room. I pray over her for protection. I pray for safety. I think she's covered ... but it still makes my stomach turn thinking about it.
My goal is to have her upstairs when we get home from Indy -- which is in a couple of weeks. I think if God blesses me with peace about it, that will be a likely reality.
So keep that in your prayers for me.
The one thing I am struggling with is the wisdom to know when to move her into the nursery. When we originally picked the upstairs bedroom for her nursery, I thought no problem! Now that she's here it feels like it is 100 miles away. I bought a video monitor, and even that doesn't ease my anxiety.
You'd think I'd be fine with it. After all, I prayed over her room. I pray over her for protection. I pray for safety. I think she's covered ... but it still makes my stomach turn thinking about it.
My goal is to have her upstairs when we get home from Indy -- which is in a couple of weeks. I think if God blesses me with peace about it, that will be a likely reality.
So keep that in your prayers for me.
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
Purpose Driven Life?
I wonder how God is honored in changing diapers ...
I've been struggling lately with finding purpose and meaning in my daily activities. I know that it's not about me - it's about taking care of my family. I am completely blessed to have the opportunity to stay home with Bree, and I love spending time with her - but I still struggle with feeling like what I do matters.
I wake up, I feed her, I change her diapers, I bounce her, I play with her, I change more diapers, and I feed her again. Repeat. Repeat. Repeat. Throw in some cooking, cleaning, and paying bills -- and there you have it.
The problem is that I know success is found in honoring God - and not in what we feel like we accomplish in life. I pray that if I continue to do my work well - serving my family and loving them - I won't be able to help but see God honored in my life.
I guess God cleans up my dirty mess on a daily basis ... so who am I to balk at cleaning up someone else's?
"His master replied, 'Well done, good and faithful servant! You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things. Come and share your master's happiness!'"
Matthew 25:23
I've been struggling lately with finding purpose and meaning in my daily activities. I know that it's not about me - it's about taking care of my family. I am completely blessed to have the opportunity to stay home with Bree, and I love spending time with her - but I still struggle with feeling like what I do matters.
I wake up, I feed her, I change her diapers, I bounce her, I play with her, I change more diapers, and I feed her again. Repeat. Repeat. Repeat. Throw in some cooking, cleaning, and paying bills -- and there you have it.
The problem is that I know success is found in honoring God - and not in what we feel like we accomplish in life. I pray that if I continue to do my work well - serving my family and loving them - I won't be able to help but see God honored in my life.
I guess God cleans up my dirty mess on a daily basis ... so who am I to balk at cleaning up someone else's?
"His master replied, 'Well done, good and faithful servant! You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things. Come and share your master's happiness!'"
Matthew 25:23
Friday, May 20, 2011
First Steps
No, Bree is not already taking her first steps. She doesn't even know she has feet yet. But my first steps as her mom are to release her daily into God's watchful protection. Many new moms fear constantly about their new baby. Some things are realistic, some are completely crazy (but it makes sense to them at the time).
I have not struggled with this too severely, but I think it is because I had to give Bree to the Lord a long time ago, before I even knew her. After I got home from Africa, we found out I was pregnant. I was nervous everyday. I prayed that she wouldn't be affected by the drugs and vaccines I had received. With each passing month I had to continue to give her to the Lord. She was in His hands.
Now that she is here, I have to continue to do that.
My first devotion on praying for your child was exactly that: releasing my child into God's hands.
"We cannot be everywhere. But God can. We cannot see everything. But God can. We cannot know everything. But God can. Releasing them into God's hands is a sign of faith and trust in Him."
How foolish of us to think we love our child the most. God surely cares for them as much - or more - than we do. Whenever fear strikes my heart about Bree, I will take it as a cue to pray until I feel peace. If I do not feel peace, I will enlist the help of others to pray, as well. Giving her to God must be a daily choice, and by putting God in charge ... That takes a lot of pressure off me. And parenting becomes much more enjoyable.
I have not struggled with this too severely, but I think it is because I had to give Bree to the Lord a long time ago, before I even knew her. After I got home from Africa, we found out I was pregnant. I was nervous everyday. I prayed that she wouldn't be affected by the drugs and vaccines I had received. With each passing month I had to continue to give her to the Lord. She was in His hands.
Now that she is here, I have to continue to do that.
My first devotion on praying for your child was exactly that: releasing my child into God's hands.
"We cannot be everywhere. But God can. We cannot see everything. But God can. We cannot know everything. But God can. Releasing them into God's hands is a sign of faith and trust in Him."
How foolish of us to think we love our child the most. God surely cares for them as much - or more - than we do. Whenever fear strikes my heart about Bree, I will take it as a cue to pray until I feel peace. If I do not feel peace, I will enlist the help of others to pray, as well. Giving her to God must be a daily choice, and by putting God in charge ... That takes a lot of pressure off me. And parenting becomes much more enjoyable.
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
Beauty Revealed
My first real lesson from my new quiet time routine (see Previous post) was in the area of wifehood. The first part of praying for your husband actually started by praying for yourself, his wife. Weird, but okay. I was awestruck by this quote:
"You will be expected to be sexually appealing, a good cook, a great mother, and physically, emotionally, and spiritually fit."
I think all too often we try to do these things in our own power, and it is absolutely impossible. I think it is completely fine to enlist God's help in these areas. But the one I want to address specifically is the appealing one. There has to be some effort on our own part made to keep ourselves attractive to our husbands. I am not saying anything like cosmetic surgery is ever warranted, but like Queen Esther, who beautified herself for a year before going to see the king, we need to make the effort.
I often find myself wondering, does Brent still find me attractive? My devotional posed this question in response to that thought:
"What am I doing to make myself attractive to my husband? Do I keep myself clean and smelling good? Do I see that my internal self is cleansed and rejuvenated with regular exercise? Do I preserve my strength and vitality with a healthful diet? Do I dress attractively? And most important: do I spend time alone with God every day? I guarantee that the more time you spend with the Lord, the more radiant you will become (Proverbs 31:30). You can't afford not to make this investment in yourself ... It is not selfish to do it. It is selfish not to do it."
I would say that is fairly convicting, but I think it is definitely timely for me right now. I have been dealing with a new body since I had Bree. I call it my 'mom' body. While I have put time and effort into getting back to my original weight, and because I have made an effort to eat healthy and get moving, I achieved that goal weeks ago. However, things may never be exactly how they used to be, but I am learning that it does not make it less beautiful, or me less beautiful to Brent.
My beauty and radiance ultimately come from time spent with the Lord and my relationship with Him. I can make the effort to do what I can to maintain a healthy body, but my heart for the Lord is what shines outward and beautifies me.
"You will be expected to be sexually appealing, a good cook, a great mother, and physically, emotionally, and spiritually fit."
I think all too often we try to do these things in our own power, and it is absolutely impossible. I think it is completely fine to enlist God's help in these areas. But the one I want to address specifically is the appealing one. There has to be some effort on our own part made to keep ourselves attractive to our husbands. I am not saying anything like cosmetic surgery is ever warranted, but like Queen Esther, who beautified herself for a year before going to see the king, we need to make the effort.
I often find myself wondering, does Brent still find me attractive? My devotional posed this question in response to that thought:
"What am I doing to make myself attractive to my husband? Do I keep myself clean and smelling good? Do I see that my internal self is cleansed and rejuvenated with regular exercise? Do I preserve my strength and vitality with a healthful diet? Do I dress attractively? And most important: do I spend time alone with God every day? I guarantee that the more time you spend with the Lord, the more radiant you will become (Proverbs 31:30). You can't afford not to make this investment in yourself ... It is not selfish to do it. It is selfish not to do it."
I would say that is fairly convicting, but I think it is definitely timely for me right now. I have been dealing with a new body since I had Bree. I call it my 'mom' body. While I have put time and effort into getting back to my original weight, and because I have made an effort to eat healthy and get moving, I achieved that goal weeks ago. However, things may never be exactly how they used to be, but I am learning that it does not make it less beautiful, or me less beautiful to Brent.
My beauty and radiance ultimately come from time spent with the Lord and my relationship with Him. I can make the effort to do what I can to maintain a healthy body, but my heart for the Lord is what shines outward and beautifies me.
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
Where have I been?
Hello, blog. I have missed you.
The past month has been a blur of feeding, crying, and changing diapers. Things are starting to settle down a bit, and I am learning Bree a little more each day. Praise the Lord.
Spiritually, things have been a little dry for me these past two months. I recently went to the bookstore to find something I can do on my own this summer to refresh my relationship with God.
I chose an awesome three-book compilation. It is The Power of the Praying Wife, Parent, and Woman. I have already started the prayer journey, and it has been amazing. I will start posting some of my reflection tomorrow - if Bree allows me to.
I start by reading one chapter in the morning about praying for Brent, and then I pray for him. At lunch, I read a chapter about praying for children, and then I pray for Bree. I have not started the 'woman' section yet. But tonight, I will start that as well. So in the evening I will read a chapter about womanhood, and then pray for myself.
My goal for this summer is to really grow in my prayer life. It is so astronomically important. I have already felt God moving in my life. When something comes to mind, rather than worry about it, I just start praying. So hopefully I continue to develop good prayer habits.
Please hold me accountable to this. You can even let me know if I can pray for you, and I will!
The past month has been a blur of feeding, crying, and changing diapers. Things are starting to settle down a bit, and I am learning Bree a little more each day. Praise the Lord.
Spiritually, things have been a little dry for me these past two months. I recently went to the bookstore to find something I can do on my own this summer to refresh my relationship with God.
I chose an awesome three-book compilation. It is The Power of the Praying Wife, Parent, and Woman. I have already started the prayer journey, and it has been amazing. I will start posting some of my reflection tomorrow - if Bree allows me to.
I start by reading one chapter in the morning about praying for Brent, and then I pray for him. At lunch, I read a chapter about praying for children, and then I pray for Bree. I have not started the 'woman' section yet. But tonight, I will start that as well. So in the evening I will read a chapter about womanhood, and then pray for myself.
My goal for this summer is to really grow in my prayer life. It is so astronomically important. I have already felt God moving in my life. When something comes to mind, rather than worry about it, I just start praying. So hopefully I continue to develop good prayer habits.
Please hold me accountable to this. You can even let me know if I can pray for you, and I will!
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
Life after Baby
I've been home for two weeks today. It seems forever ago that I was sitting in the hospital bed sporting those awesome - yet drafty - gowns. While the road to recovery has been filled with tears and pain, I am reminded of the gift that came with them when I look into Bree's eyes.
I'm adjusting to motherhood. I have great days, and I have hard days. It's hardest feeling trapped in my house. I have 4 weeks remaining of "abdominal rest" which means no lifting still ...
I miss doing laundry ... and mopping. How sad is that?
But I love my little family.
I'm adjusting to motherhood. I have great days, and I have hard days. It's hardest feeling trapped in my house. I have 4 weeks remaining of "abdominal rest" which means no lifting still ...
I miss doing laundry ... and mopping. How sad is that?
But I love my little family.
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
A Letter to My Daughter
Dear Bree,
The doctors have decided it's best for you to come out now. I know things are really great in there, but I promise things will be fun out here too. Your dad and I are very excited to see you, and we'd like it to be soon. We would appreciate your cooperation in this matter.
Also, there may be a lot of yelling and screaming while you are making your appearance, but don't be scared. I'll explain that later when you get a little bigger. It's got to do with a woman named Eve ... but that story is for another time.
See you soon!
Love,
Mom
The doctors have decided it's best for you to come out now. I know things are really great in there, but I promise things will be fun out here too. Your dad and I are very excited to see you, and we'd like it to be soon. We would appreciate your cooperation in this matter.
Also, there may be a lot of yelling and screaming while you are making your appearance, but don't be scared. I'll explain that later when you get a little bigger. It's got to do with a woman named Eve ... but that story is for another time.
See you soon!
Love,
Mom
Monday, April 11, 2011
April Favorite Things
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
A Date with Me
Sometimes I find that I need a girl's day out, but there might not be girls available. It used to bum me out, but one time I decided to embrace what Rachel Green strives to do in an episode of Friends.
I called it "A Date with Me."
I went to the store and bought a treat (I chose chocolate) and magazine (Better Homes and Gardens), and I headed to the nail salon to get a pedicure. Pedicures are rare, but this was a special date with me, and I treat me well.
Then I got lunch from my favorite place (nothing expensive), headed home, and I popped my favorite movie in to watch while I did some crafting.
It was a marvelous day, and I felt refreshed afterwards.
I realized sometimes it's nice to enjoy your own company.
I called it "A Date with Me."
I went to the store and bought a treat (I chose chocolate) and magazine (Better Homes and Gardens), and I headed to the nail salon to get a pedicure. Pedicures are rare, but this was a special date with me, and I treat me well.
Then I got lunch from my favorite place (nothing expensive), headed home, and I popped my favorite movie in to watch while I did some crafting.
It was a marvelous day, and I felt refreshed afterwards.
I realized sometimes it's nice to enjoy your own company.
Monday, April 4, 2011
The Simple Life
I have a friend (at this awesome blog) who has recently expressed a desire to live more simply. I think it's something we can all do better, and I'm encouraged by her to seek new ways to do that. I was reading through Matthew 6:19-34, and it offers some great wisdom on things we look to for happiness and about the temptation to worry.
So, I have three tips on how to simplify life (including our thought life):
Clear your space.
Clutter, stuff everywhere, projects all around. Clear it out! Do you really need four of that thing or that pile of old stuff? Donate! Sell! When you start clearing out your surroundings, you’ll notice immediately a simpler feeling. A place for everything and everything in its place.
Clear your mind.
Worry, negativity, stress. We are constantly bombarded by things that would cause us to do these things, but we have a hope in Christ that allows us to take time each day to "cast our cares upon the Lord" (1 Peter 5:7). Begin a daily practice of giving your mind to the Lord. Set aside 5-10 minutes to pray and let the Spirit take the controls. Doing this on a regular basis will help you feel more in tune with the Holy Spirit.
Clear your schedule.
It's totally okay to have a weekend where you have no plans. It opens up opportunities for God to work. He might have plans for you that you would otherwise miss if you try to fill your whole week and weekend. One thing Brent and I love is having friends that we can call on a given night and say, "let's have dinner!" In general, most people are too busy to do such things on a whim ... but those who live simply seem to have the time!
Repeat as needed.
There will be busy seasons in life. It happens! We get caught up in things, events, stuff. It's fine. Just try to keep simplicity in the back of your mind. Just like Spring cleaning, learn to Spring Simplify.
So, I have three tips on how to simplify life (including our thought life):
Clear your space.
Clutter, stuff everywhere, projects all around. Clear it out! Do you really need four of that thing or that pile of old stuff? Donate! Sell! When you start clearing out your surroundings, you’ll notice immediately a simpler feeling. A place for everything and everything in its place.
Clear your mind.
Worry, negativity, stress. We are constantly bombarded by things that would cause us to do these things, but we have a hope in Christ that allows us to take time each day to "cast our cares upon the Lord" (1 Peter 5:7). Begin a daily practice of giving your mind to the Lord. Set aside 5-10 minutes to pray and let the Spirit take the controls. Doing this on a regular basis will help you feel more in tune with the Holy Spirit.
Clear your schedule.
It's totally okay to have a weekend where you have no plans. It opens up opportunities for God to work. He might have plans for you that you would otherwise miss if you try to fill your whole week and weekend. One thing Brent and I love is having friends that we can call on a given night and say, "let's have dinner!" In general, most people are too busy to do such things on a whim ... but those who live simply seem to have the time!
Repeat as needed.
There will be busy seasons in life. It happens! We get caught up in things, events, stuff. It's fine. Just try to keep simplicity in the back of your mind. Just like Spring cleaning, learn to Spring Simplify.
Sunday, April 3, 2011
God's Wrath
In our sermon today, there was something that struck me. The pastor was talking about our response to the message of Jesus. We can ignore it, avoid it, embrace it, fight against it, rebel, etc. We all know the responses.
But a revealing idea was shared.
If we choose to continually fight against, oppose, and reject the message of Christ, it is referred to as slowly filling up the cup of wrath: "In this way they always heap up their sins to the limit. The wrath of God has come upon them at last." (1 Thessalonians 2:16).
I never thought of this, but the pastor said sometimes God's judgement/wrath is expressed now. He doesn't always wait for Judgement Day. Sometimes, he gives us over to what we have chosen.
The example we see in the Bible is Pharaoh in Exodus. Throughout the whole book, God reveals miraculous things through Moses, but over and over again it says Pharaoh hardened his heart. He continually rejected God. And eventually, it changed to "God hardened Pharaoh's heart."
Pharaoh had filled up his cup of wrath to the brim so God went ahead and gave him over to it. Whereas usually God takes our cup of wrath when we ask Him to, God make Pharaoh take his own.
I guess it makes sense. Sometimes we get exactly what we ask for. If we keep rejecting and opposing God - we may just see His wrath now.
But a revealing idea was shared.
If we choose to continually fight against, oppose, and reject the message of Christ, it is referred to as slowly filling up the cup of wrath: "In this way they always heap up their sins to the limit. The wrath of God has come upon them at last." (1 Thessalonians 2:16).
I never thought of this, but the pastor said sometimes God's judgement/wrath is expressed now. He doesn't always wait for Judgement Day. Sometimes, he gives us over to what we have chosen.
The example we see in the Bible is Pharaoh in Exodus. Throughout the whole book, God reveals miraculous things through Moses, but over and over again it says Pharaoh hardened his heart. He continually rejected God. And eventually, it changed to "God hardened Pharaoh's heart."
Pharaoh had filled up his cup of wrath to the brim so God went ahead and gave him over to it. Whereas usually God takes our cup of wrath when we ask Him to, God make Pharaoh take his own.
I guess it makes sense. Sometimes we get exactly what we ask for. If we keep rejecting and opposing God - we may just see His wrath now.
Friday, April 1, 2011
April Verses
Romans 12 is a passage on love in action, and our Bible study is finishing this year off with lessons focused on growth in two specific areas: prayer and vulnerability. As I've been preparing for both these areas, I thought of the following verses:
Romans 12:10 "Be devoted to one another in love. Honor one another above yourselves."
This is essential to vulnerability, for me. Sometimes you have to think of other people. It's never easy to open up about something, but others need to know you trust them enough to share. It also could open up dialog for someone going through the same thing -- or could encourage someone going through the same thing.
Romans 12:15 "Rejoice with those who rejoice; mourn with those who mourn."
Vulnerability requires empathy. You have to put yourself into someone's joy, someone's pain, someone's trial. You have to focus on trying to feel what they are feeling so that you can be there for them. Some of the deepest relationships I have include times when you can cry together and - more easily - laugh together. I am looking for that in my relationships.
So - throughout April and May - look for growth in vulnerability from me! Hold me accountable to that. Laugh with me, and cry with me.
APRIL FOOL'S!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
No, I'm kidding. I actually want to grow in these areas.
Romans 12:10 "Be devoted to one another in love. Honor one another above yourselves."
This is essential to vulnerability, for me. Sometimes you have to think of other people. It's never easy to open up about something, but others need to know you trust them enough to share. It also could open up dialog for someone going through the same thing -- or could encourage someone going through the same thing.
Romans 12:15 "Rejoice with those who rejoice; mourn with those who mourn."
Vulnerability requires empathy. You have to put yourself into someone's joy, someone's pain, someone's trial. You have to focus on trying to feel what they are feeling so that you can be there for them. Some of the deepest relationships I have include times when you can cry together and - more easily - laugh together. I am looking for that in my relationships.
So - throughout April and May - look for growth in vulnerability from me! Hold me accountable to that. Laugh with me, and cry with me.
APRIL FOOL'S!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
No, I'm kidding. I actually want to grow in these areas.
Saturday, March 26, 2011
Found by God
People are often surprised that I say I'm feeling good. I know it's difficult to believe because the stereotype is mostly misery and discomfort in the last few weeks of pregnancy. But - I honestly feel great. Especially when I get to eat desserts.
I'm not saying I am this super woman or anything. I think the fact that I haven't had any problems is directly related to how great I feel (that and a great husband who has been very encouraging throughout the past 10 months). I didn't struggle with blood pressure, nausea, or weird pregnancy-related problems. It makes it hard to complain.
I think more than anything, I'm nervous about labor ... and parenthood. I think those two things have been a distraction to the actual discomforts of pregnancy. I just keep praying that God will equip me efficiently for the things that are coming. I know He will, but I ask repeatedly - just in case.
I rest in God's words to Jeremiah in chapter 29, verses 11-14: "For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you,” declares the LORD.
I will be found by you. How reassuring that is.
I'm not saying I am this super woman or anything. I think the fact that I haven't had any problems is directly related to how great I feel (that and a great husband who has been very encouraging throughout the past 10 months). I didn't struggle with blood pressure, nausea, or weird pregnancy-related problems. It makes it hard to complain.
I think more than anything, I'm nervous about labor ... and parenthood. I think those two things have been a distraction to the actual discomforts of pregnancy. I just keep praying that God will equip me efficiently for the things that are coming. I know He will, but I ask repeatedly - just in case.
I rest in God's words to Jeremiah in chapter 29, verses 11-14: "For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you,” declares the LORD.
I will be found by you. How reassuring that is.
Monday, March 21, 2011
Baby Shower #4
My fourth, and final, baby shower was a blast. It was held in Indy, and my doctor told me to make it a "quick trip" because apparently traveling at 37 weeks is "frowned upon," but oh well!
It was a whirlwind weekend, but my two sisters and mom did a fantastic job putting it together. It was perfect. We arrived Friday night and just went to bed (got in late). Saturday morning we got up and had breakfast with my family, and then the girls went and got pedicures.
We were a riot at the nail salon. Cara couldn't stop laughing during the foot scrub, and Jamie and I looked like two waddling ducks!
The shower was really fun. I got to see a lot of people, and we played some really fun games! Plus, the desserts at Rick's Boatyard were AMAZING: key lime pie, German chocolate cake, and cheesecake. I tried them all eventually. My sisters did cupcake favors, and it was literally the best cupcake I have ever eaten. I got to take four home, and I ate them all. We got a lot of great stuff, and we were able to finish the nursery over spring break!
I didn't get to take a lot of pictures because I was visiting and playing games, but here's one of me and Jamie outside of the boatyard. I had a great time spending quality time with my mom and my sisters - so it was a great weekend.
It was a whirlwind weekend, but my two sisters and mom did a fantastic job putting it together. It was perfect. We arrived Friday night and just went to bed (got in late). Saturday morning we got up and had breakfast with my family, and then the girls went and got pedicures.
We were a riot at the nail salon. Cara couldn't stop laughing during the foot scrub, and Jamie and I looked like two waddling ducks!
The shower was really fun. I got to see a lot of people, and we played some really fun games! Plus, the desserts at Rick's Boatyard were AMAZING: key lime pie, German chocolate cake, and cheesecake. I tried them all eventually. My sisters did cupcake favors, and it was literally the best cupcake I have ever eaten. I got to take four home, and I ate them all. We got a lot of great stuff, and we were able to finish the nursery over spring break!
I didn't get to take a lot of pictures because I was visiting and playing games, but here's one of me and Jamie outside of the boatyard. I had a great time spending quality time with my mom and my sisters - so it was a great weekend.
Friday, March 18, 2011
In My Hometown
Jesus said to them, “A prophet is not without honor except in his own town, among his relatives and in his own home.” Mark 6:4
The tendency in our culture has not changed much from when Jesus walked this earth. He was honored and praised in every town he visited - with the exception of his own hometown, with his own family.
Brent and I recently did a devotion on this passage. My thinking is sometimes it is hardest for the people closest to you (family) to think of you changing. They only knew Jesus as a brother, a carpenter, a son, a teenager in the village, and so on. When it was revealed that he was actually their Lord and Savior ... they are like, "...what? Are you SURE?"
They can't picture him being anything more than what they already know.
Isn't that usually what happens to people now? When people who live immoral lives change their ways, people struggle to believe it. We think there's no way THAT person is living a changed life.
Fortunately for me, my 'hometown' is much different. I spent a great deal of time changing, and I know my sisters and parents have both respected those changes and encouraged them. I send multiple emails each week asking them for support, advice, suggestions, and encouragement.
This could very well be a "girl" thing, and that is fine with me. I love the relationship I have with them. I love that I can ask them anything, and they offer Godly wisdom from very different perspectives.
I love that I still feel honored in my own hometown - even with the people that know me best (and therefore know all of my flaws, mistakes, and faults).
The tendency in our culture has not changed much from when Jesus walked this earth. He was honored and praised in every town he visited - with the exception of his own hometown, with his own family.
Brent and I recently did a devotion on this passage. My thinking is sometimes it is hardest for the people closest to you (family) to think of you changing. They only knew Jesus as a brother, a carpenter, a son, a teenager in the village, and so on. When it was revealed that he was actually their Lord and Savior ... they are like, "...what? Are you SURE?"
They can't picture him being anything more than what they already know.
Isn't that usually what happens to people now? When people who live immoral lives change their ways, people struggle to believe it. We think there's no way THAT person is living a changed life.
Fortunately for me, my 'hometown' is much different. I spent a great deal of time changing, and I know my sisters and parents have both respected those changes and encouraged them. I send multiple emails each week asking them for support, advice, suggestions, and encouragement.
This could very well be a "girl" thing, and that is fine with me. I love the relationship I have with them. I love that I can ask them anything, and they offer Godly wisdom from very different perspectives.
I love that I still feel honored in my own hometown - even with the people that know me best (and therefore know all of my flaws, mistakes, and faults).
Thursday, March 17, 2011
Are you wearing green today?
St. Patrick's Day is a religious holiday celebrated internationally today! It is named after St. Patrick, the most commonly recognised of the patron saints of Ireland. The day is generally characterised by the attendance of church services, wearing of green attire (especially shamrocks), and the lifting of Lenten restrictions! Did you know that?
If you gave up something for Lent, feel free to indulge today!
St. Patrick is said to have used the shamrock to explain the Holy Trinity to the pagan Irish, and the wearing and display of shamrocks and shamrock-inspired designs have become a feature of the day!
So get in the spirit, and bust out your green and shamrocks! Consider turning a boring dinner GREEN tonight! Adding food coloring to milk, macaroni and cheese, pretty much anything would be fun! Enjoy!
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
Sunday, March 13, 2011
March Favorite Things
Thursday, March 10, 2011
Baby Shower #3
The wonderful church/Bible study women in my life threw me & Bree a baby shower. It was extremely special to celebrate with them, and I enjoyed the time we spent crafting and talking! The hostess decided to forgo baby shower games and do a craft instead. It ended up being adorable, and we all loved it! The dessert was a pumpkin cheesecake - two of my favorite things! We also got a lot of really nice gifts, too. God has truly blessed Brent and I with a wonderful spiritual network of friends here.
Me & the hostess, Julie
My finished product, a picture holder to put in our bedroom!
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
If only Giselle pooped Reese cups ...
The dishes are dirty - three times a day - and piling up again on the counter. I think there's even some sort of plant growth on that bowl. The laundry bin is overflowing with dirty clothes. I guess if I need that sweater in there, I better smell it to see if it's acceptable to wear again. Dust bunnies are taking over my floors. Soap scum is taking over my shower. I'd love to fix that up, but it's not in the budget. Giselle is having a poop party back in her room - and it never seems to land directly on her pad. Dang - did I forget to get stuff for dinner tonight?
Do these thoughts sound at all familiar (maybe not the poop one, Giselle is a "special" dog)? I realize womanhood is special. I also realize being a woman can sometimes be overwhelming. We have houses to run, husbands to love and support, kids to take care of, pets to look after, and usually not too much time for us. I thought I'd offer a personal tip on staying sane that has worked for me, most of the time.
Contentment.
We see the things other people have, and it makes us feel lacking. We see the things society tells us we need, and we feel like we are always a step behind.
If we look at our lives, are we really content with the things we have? Or are we always looking for the next thing on our list? Sometimes the things we "need" - we don't need. We want. And I don't know if you have noticed, but the constant wishing and wanting causes me personal drama. A lot of times, I need to step back and pray, "BE CONTENT, MISSY."
Because let's face it, some days the laundry doesn't get done. Some nights we eat Arby's rather than a homemade lasagna. I probably won't get to re-decorate my bedroom anytime soon, and Giselle will never poop on her pad.
But I am blessed to have a great husband, a daughter on the way, an awesome family and friend support network, and a ton of material things that God has given to me that make my life wonderful.
I just have to remember to be content.
Do these thoughts sound at all familiar (maybe not the poop one, Giselle is a "special" dog)? I realize womanhood is special. I also realize being a woman can sometimes be overwhelming. We have houses to run, husbands to love and support, kids to take care of, pets to look after, and usually not too much time for us. I thought I'd offer a personal tip on staying sane that has worked for me, most of the time.
Contentment.
We see the things other people have, and it makes us feel lacking. We see the things society tells us we need, and we feel like we are always a step behind.
If we look at our lives, are we really content with the things we have? Or are we always looking for the next thing on our list? Sometimes the things we "need" - we don't need. We want. And I don't know if you have noticed, but the constant wishing and wanting causes me personal drama. A lot of times, I need to step back and pray, "BE CONTENT, MISSY."
Because let's face it, some days the laundry doesn't get done. Some nights we eat Arby's rather than a homemade lasagna. I probably won't get to re-decorate my bedroom anytime soon, and Giselle will never poop on her pad.
But I am blessed to have a great husband, a daughter on the way, an awesome family and friend support network, and a ton of material things that God has given to me that make my life wonderful.
I just have to remember to be content.
Saturday, March 5, 2011
Give-Away Winner
Congratulations to Jamie Griffith over at Blessed Simplicity for winning the $20 give-away to any CSN store. Thanks to those of you who entered (ahem, mom and Cara). It was nice to see your favorite verses on my Facebook wall! I'll do another give-away later on down the road!
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
My 100th Post Give-Away!
"She makes coverings for her bed; she is clothed in fine linen and purple." Proverbs 31:22
A thought-provoking portion of my Bible study this week was reflecting on what my house says to people when they enter it. It's not about wealth and luxury but about taking care and time creating beauty in my home. The challenge was to walk through my house and write down one improvement I could make to each room. It's not about spending money; it's about spending time, effort, and care. I thought of three things I would like to do:
1. Paint rooms to add life and color!
2. Work on our office - furniture and layout need some serious attention (I found some cute desks that I might look into!).
3. Hang some homemade art in the bedroom and hallways.
This challenge came at a great time. Because it's my 100th post, and I wanted to do something fun! In celebration, I will be having a little give-away for all my faithful followers.
To enter the give-away, you can do three things:
♥ Become a follower of my blog.
♥ Leave a comment letting me know what little "home improvement" you would love to do.
♥ Write your favorite Bible verse on my Facebook wall.
I will choose a winner and announce it on Saturday morning, March 5th!
A thought-provoking portion of my Bible study this week was reflecting on what my house says to people when they enter it. It's not about wealth and luxury but about taking care and time creating beauty in my home. The challenge was to walk through my house and write down one improvement I could make to each room. It's not about spending money; it's about spending time, effort, and care. I thought of three things I would like to do:
1. Paint rooms to add life and color!
2. Work on our office - furniture and layout need some serious attention (I found some cute desks that I might look into!).
3. Hang some homemade art in the bedroom and hallways.
This challenge came at a great time. Because it's my 100th post, and I wanted to do something fun! In celebration, I will be having a little give-away for all my faithful followers.
To enter the give-away, you can do three things:
♥ Become a follower of my blog.
♥ Leave a comment letting me know what little "home improvement" you would love to do.
♥ Write your favorite Bible verse on my Facebook wall.
I will choose a winner and announce it on Saturday morning, March 5th!
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
My March Verse
"'Many women do noble things, but you surpass them all.' Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised. Honor her for all that her hands have done, and let her works bring her praise at the city gate." Proverbs 31:29-31
Monday, February 28, 2011
They're Finally Here!
There is not a problem that can't be solved with Girl Scout Cookie therapy.
Trust me.
Sunday, February 27, 2011
Baby Shower #2
This was a crazy, busy weekend that was kicked off by a shower at work on Friday afternoon for Brent and me. It was truly awesome! We were overwhelmed with the generosity -- and creativity -- of the people we work with. The theme was "Mismatch," and they had some adorable sock animals and lots of colors! Wow! We also played this really fun game where they had video taped Brent answering some questions (about our baby, babies in general, etc.), and then I had to try to match my answer to what I thought he would say. It was hilarious! We were so blessed by everyone.
The party table!
Three big gifts, many other gifts not pictured!
Adorable Diaper Cake!
Banner for Breanna
Delicious animal cracker favors!
Invitation (framed!) and flowers!
Delicious cupcakes!
A few more gifts, still others not pictured!
Cute baby pictures of me and Brent!
God is good!
God is good!
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
Try Me!
It's not that I don't like Starbucks ... I do. I just can't afford it. When I started getting cravings for their Carmel Apple Spice, I had to find a solution. Being the "age of information" it was all too easy to Google the recipe Starbucks uses. Turns out, it's completely simple. And cheap.
Here's what you need:
Whipped Topping, Apple Juice, Cinnamon Syrup (sometimes I use Cinnamon and just whisk it into the apple juice on the stove), and Caramel Drizzle.
Heat apple juice and cinnamon on the stove, stir often. Pour into glasses, and top with whipped cream and then caramel drizzle. Easy Peasy.
Here's what you get:
A delicious, homemade version of my Starbucks favorite!
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
Community through Cooking
For the past few weeks, I've been feeling lonely. It's a busy season for people, and my family is far away. I love spending time with my husband, but we both agree that sometimes it feels nice to have a girl call and want to hang out (we all need girl time and boy time).
After sharing with a few friends that I was having a rough day, I got a really sweet email from a friend in my Bible study. She was very encouraging, and she asked me to spend the day with her. After some mall walking and lunch, we went to her house.
She had a really great idea that ended up being super fun! We made a full cake together, and then we split it and each took half of it home for dessert that night. We did the same with dinner. We made a huge batch of soup, and split it in half. It was a great experience because we had fun talking and cooking, but then I had dinner and dessert for that night already made!
So - taking her cue - this week I was planning to make stuffed shells. The process is fairly long, but it makes a ton. So I called another friend. We made the shells together, and divided them up. Again, we had time to talk and encourage each other, and then we both had dinner prepared for that night.
Two birds. One stone.
I have heard of meal sharing, and it's really beneficial! However, the process is more about making the food on your own and then splitting it up. The reason I enjoyed this was that I was getting a great meal while spending time with a friend.
I feel like community is built in so many different ways. This is just one way to do it that God recently revealed to me, and I have really enjoyed it.
After sharing with a few friends that I was having a rough day, I got a really sweet email from a friend in my Bible study. She was very encouraging, and she asked me to spend the day with her. After some mall walking and lunch, we went to her house.
She had a really great idea that ended up being super fun! We made a full cake together, and then we split it and each took half of it home for dessert that night. We did the same with dinner. We made a huge batch of soup, and split it in half. It was a great experience because we had fun talking and cooking, but then I had dinner and dessert for that night already made!
So - taking her cue - this week I was planning to make stuffed shells. The process is fairly long, but it makes a ton. So I called another friend. We made the shells together, and divided them up. Again, we had time to talk and encourage each other, and then we both had dinner prepared for that night.
Two birds. One stone.
I have heard of meal sharing, and it's really beneficial! However, the process is more about making the food on your own and then splitting it up. The reason I enjoyed this was that I was getting a great meal while spending time with a friend.
I feel like community is built in so many different ways. This is just one way to do it that God recently revealed to me, and I have really enjoyed it.
Sunday, February 20, 2011
Willing to Wash Feet
"It was just before the Passover Feast. Jesus knew that the time had come for him to leave this world and go to the Father. Having loved his own who were in the world, he now showed them the full extent of his love." (John 13:1)
You may think what follows is His crucifixion because that would seemingly be how He would show us the "full extent of His love," but this verse is actually the first verse of chapter 13 - the part of the story where Jesus washes the disciples feet.
What's amazing is that Jesus's time is coming to a close, and the last thing He wants to do for His disciples is to wash their feet. This passage, to me, so exemplifies how God wants us to live:
Love Him supremely -- love others sacrificially.
The act of washing their feet would have traditionally been something a slave or "house servant" did. But Jesus wanted His disciples to realize a couple of things: 1. He was washing their feet (an act of sacrifice and humility) and 2. He was washing EVERYONE'S feet (EVEN JUDAS - whom He already knew would betray Him). Don't miss that. The very person who betrayed Jesus was receiving this very loving act from Him.
I'm trying to apply this to my own life in thinking how can I show others the full extent of my love? How aware am I of how I can be serving others? Something Brent and I constantly strive to do is to be available. We enjoy the opportunity to serve others and help people. The problem we consistently find ourselves running into is that people don't usually feel comfortable asking. It's very hard to serve others when the world, in general, portrays vulnerability as weakness - which it clearly is not. People, all too often, keep problems or needs to themselves because Satan tells us no will care, people are too busy for us, and we should be able to handle things on our own.
But Satan is a liar. And I intend to prove him wrong.
I want to do more than pray for people. I want to get in there and get my hands dirty washing their feet. I'm just waiting on God to lead ...
You may think what follows is His crucifixion because that would seemingly be how He would show us the "full extent of His love," but this verse is actually the first verse of chapter 13 - the part of the story where Jesus washes the disciples feet.
What's amazing is that Jesus's time is coming to a close, and the last thing He wants to do for His disciples is to wash their feet. This passage, to me, so exemplifies how God wants us to live:
Love Him supremely -- love others sacrificially.
The act of washing their feet would have traditionally been something a slave or "house servant" did. But Jesus wanted His disciples to realize a couple of things: 1. He was washing their feet (an act of sacrifice and humility) and 2. He was washing EVERYONE'S feet (EVEN JUDAS - whom He already knew would betray Him). Don't miss that. The very person who betrayed Jesus was receiving this very loving act from Him.
I'm trying to apply this to my own life in thinking how can I show others the full extent of my love? How aware am I of how I can be serving others? Something Brent and I constantly strive to do is to be available. We enjoy the opportunity to serve others and help people. The problem we consistently find ourselves running into is that people don't usually feel comfortable asking. It's very hard to serve others when the world, in general, portrays vulnerability as weakness - which it clearly is not. People, all too often, keep problems or needs to themselves because Satan tells us no will care, people are too busy for us, and we should be able to handle things on our own.
But Satan is a liar. And I intend to prove him wrong.
I want to do more than pray for people. I want to get in there and get my hands dirty washing their feet. I'm just waiting on God to lead ...
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
February Favorite Things
Oprah always has these things that she can't live without, so I thought it would be fun to list a couple each month that I can't live without! When I thought about it, these two things popped into my mind instantly because they are probably the most useful things I've ever owned.
A Shark Steam Mop ... the world's best mop. This thing is awesome. It steams your floors with no chemicals and no cleaning solutions to buy. Just pour in some water, wait 45 seconds until hot, and steam away! It's awesome. You can even do hardwood floors if they are finished! Come to my house anytime for a demonstration.
An Ove Glove ... God's gift to baking. This thing is the best gift ever given to us. We use it all the time - for lots of different things. I've never been burned by a pan or pot! It's the ugliest thing in the world - for sure - but I love it. I wish I had two - one for each hand.
A Shark Steam Mop ... the world's best mop. This thing is awesome. It steams your floors with no chemicals and no cleaning solutions to buy. Just pour in some water, wait 45 seconds until hot, and steam away! It's awesome. You can even do hardwood floors if they are finished! Come to my house anytime for a demonstration.
An Ove Glove ... God's gift to baking. This thing is the best gift ever given to us. We use it all the time - for lots of different things. I've never been burned by a pan or pot! It's the ugliest thing in the world - for sure - but I love it. I wish I had two - one for each hand.
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
Baby Shower #1
Here are some pictures from the beautiful shower Brent's family threw for Bree and me. It was a lot of fun, and she got a lot of great things!
The BEST cupcakes I have ever eaten.
Fun chocolate-covered pretzel favors
Opening some fun gifts!
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