So - I was told for months and months how crazy I would be as a new mom. Luckily, I knew ahead of time to be praying for it, and I think I have side-stepped a lot of it. I don't really mind leaving Bree with people (that I trust of course), I don't mind letting people hold her (same thing, that I trust), we took her out from day one, and I let Brent do as much as he wants with her.
The one thing I am struggling with is the wisdom to know when to move her into the nursery. When we originally picked the upstairs bedroom for her nursery, I thought no problem! Now that she's here it feels like it is 100 miles away. I bought a video monitor, and even that doesn't ease my anxiety.
You'd think I'd be fine with it. After all, I prayed over her room. I pray over her for protection. I pray for safety. I think she's covered ... but it still makes my stomach turn thinking about it.
My goal is to have her upstairs when we get home from Indy -- which is in a couple of weeks. I think if God blesses me with peace about it, that will be a likely reality.
So keep that in your prayers for me.
Friday, June 24, 2011
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
Purpose Driven Life?
I wonder how God is honored in changing diapers ...
I've been struggling lately with finding purpose and meaning in my daily activities. I know that it's not about me - it's about taking care of my family. I am completely blessed to have the opportunity to stay home with Bree, and I love spending time with her - but I still struggle with feeling like what I do matters.
I wake up, I feed her, I change her diapers, I bounce her, I play with her, I change more diapers, and I feed her again. Repeat. Repeat. Repeat. Throw in some cooking, cleaning, and paying bills -- and there you have it.
The problem is that I know success is found in honoring God - and not in what we feel like we accomplish in life. I pray that if I continue to do my work well - serving my family and loving them - I won't be able to help but see God honored in my life.
I guess God cleans up my dirty mess on a daily basis ... so who am I to balk at cleaning up someone else's?
"His master replied, 'Well done, good and faithful servant! You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things. Come and share your master's happiness!'"
Matthew 25:23
I've been struggling lately with finding purpose and meaning in my daily activities. I know that it's not about me - it's about taking care of my family. I am completely blessed to have the opportunity to stay home with Bree, and I love spending time with her - but I still struggle with feeling like what I do matters.
I wake up, I feed her, I change her diapers, I bounce her, I play with her, I change more diapers, and I feed her again. Repeat. Repeat. Repeat. Throw in some cooking, cleaning, and paying bills -- and there you have it.
The problem is that I know success is found in honoring God - and not in what we feel like we accomplish in life. I pray that if I continue to do my work well - serving my family and loving them - I won't be able to help but see God honored in my life.
I guess God cleans up my dirty mess on a daily basis ... so who am I to balk at cleaning up someone else's?
"His master replied, 'Well done, good and faithful servant! You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things. Come and share your master's happiness!'"
Matthew 25:23
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